Silence.

I'm not sure I even want to write this.

I don't know how I'd go on if I didn't.

We lost Ollie in the middle of the night Wednesday.

Those words just don't seem real.

I don't know how long it'll take,

But right now it just feels like I'm reading a script.

I don't even know what happened.

She was her normal self a few days earlier, seemed pretty tired Monday,

but by Tuesday she couldn't eat & was laying in a bed of her vomit when I got home.

I think "parvo" is one of the scariest words for dog owners.

It's something I shouldn't have to worry about at almost 7 years old.

Now every time Hank or Comet makes a weird sound while we still live in this house,

every time they get sick & the vet calls in the middle of the night,

every time there's blood in anything;

I'll have flashbacks of Ollie looking exactly like this.

I'll tell you what the hardest part for me is:

Coming home & sleeping.

How do you walk in your front door when you were always greeted with her wonderful songs?

Ollie Bear,

you were the best dog we will ever have.

You'll always hold the most special place in our hearts.

You were me & your dads first baby before we were even married.

You were the pretty little girl that we just couldn't say no to outside of Office Depot at 6 weeks old.

You howled at the top of your lungs the entire car-ride home in my lap

& the singing never stopped. It became your calling card.

You were so incredibly sassy

& I will miss that sass always.

You knew how to make everyone smile

& you always knew when to nuzzle your head in our arms when we had a bad day.

Thank you for teaching Hank some of those things.

I'm so sad that he has to miss out on growing up with you.

I've never seen you love a dog the way you loved him.

You forgot all about your protective ways & truly were a momma dog.

He doesn't seem to understand where you went 

& poor Comet has to deal with him trying to wrestle him all the time.

I love you my sweet girl.

You really hated it when I shaved you but look how silly cute you look? ^^

Also, thank you to all of our friends & family. Everyone has been tremendously sweet & I'll never forget that. Thank you to all of the meals & treats left at my doorstep those first couple days & all of the kind words.

We love you all.