The past few weeks have been really tough for me. I feel emotionally and physically drained.
Why? I couldn't tell you. I have been extremely discouraged.
I am tired of being flesh. Of making human mistakes. I want to live righteously. I am sick of stumbling. I am tired of messing up.
Ryan and I were talking last night about finances and what we want and our selfishness and we both came to the conclusion that we think God is trying to teach us about sacrifice. We have lived a coushiony life as a married couple. We haven't had to make sacrifices. Even when Ryan got laid off two years ago for two months we didn't have to give anything up. Here lately, if we want to stay on the right path, we're going to have to give things up. It won't be easy and we might whine at first but I'm thankful for the lesson. One year of sacrifice ahead and I know we can do it.
For a less serious note, and to keep you updated on what we've doing lately, here you go:
We celebrated Jeremy's birthday this past weekend by taking it old school and having a roller skate party at Skate Moore complete with 3 hours of skating, pizza, soda, cookie cake and the Hokie Pokie. How can you go wrong? It was a blast and it was awesome exercise. I can't stop thinking about when we're going to get to go back. Happy Birthday Jeremy. We love you dearly.
Ryan started his new job and it's gone really well. His eyes lit up when he told me all about his first day and it made my heart so happy to see. I've got such a good feeling that he will thrive there and really find his place.
We're addicted to a game called Wahoo and if you've never played it, you are seriously missing out. It calls for 4 people to be able to play and it's a blast. Although the past two nights we've played and I've gone home with what felt like a fever because my blood pressure got so high. Ha! It really makes you anxious and nervous. I can feel my heart pounding towards the end because it's such an intense game. We play with the wonderful Marshell family and we're currently Boys - 10 and Girls - 9... which means we've played 19 games that generally take atleast an hour to play each. Yikes!
Ryan and I thought we were going to have to bite the bullet and buy a second car this week because of his new work schedule. We spent all of last night driving all over Edmond, Del City and South OKC test driving cars. It was frustrating. All in all we fell in love with the first car we drove (a 2010 Jeep Patriot). I even got Ryan to love the burnt orange color but decided we needed to think it over and see more cars before we made a final decision. I am so glad that we did because after we were done seeing all the cars and we were driving home I started to realize how much it would suck to have two car payments, two cars to put gas in, two cars on the insurance, two anual tag renewals and two cars to maintain. We came to the conclusion that although yes we can technically afford it, we don't want to right now. We can deal with sharing a car for one more year until the Cube is paid for. After all, Dave Ramsey taught us better than that. It was hard falling in love with a car we knew we couldn't have though.
My birthday is next Friday and I could care less. Is that weird? It's not a "I don't like birthdays" kind of thing. I just honestly haven't thought about it. There are so much more important things I want to do or care about than turning one year older... Maybe this another step to adulthood? Haha.
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