The List: Week 13 - Weaknesses

See the previous week here.

Describe 5 weaknesses you have

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1. Selfishness.

That's pretty self explanatory.

I've realized it more this past year than any other.

It also ties in with number 2.

2. Jealousy.

I am totally a jealous person.

Not of material items. Not in my marriage.

In my friendships. 

It's always been my secret; until now I guess.

3. Laziness.

I'm more lazy than I'll even admit.

The dishes, laundry, shopping, everything else can wait.

Right?

I go WAY too long before I do those things & it's really horrible.

I just really don't like doing things that, as an adult, I'm supposed to do.

I'd rather sit on my ass or hang out with my husband.

So maybe this weakness should actually be "Irresponsible"?

Or "I'm still a child, only I love paying bills & I work"?

4. Not living in the moment.

I have a problem with looking too much to the future

or trying to relive the past.

I let my emotions ride in those two areas & it's not healthy.

Unlike most people that would describe themselves as this,

I don't have a problem with spontaneity,

nor is it because I try to control what the future holds.

I just live in those places in my head a little too much.

5. Anxiety.

People scare the hell out of me.

They always have & I imagine they always will.

It's generally people I don't know very well

but sometimes it's even people I do.

I don't like parties unless I know everyone there.

I make myself go for the most part.

That is, if you really do matter a lot to me.

I can't handle going somewhere I don't know by myself.

I don't care if I'm meeting 20 of my best friends there.

I'm not walking in there alone.
I will sit in my car & cry before that happens.

It's an embarrassing quality & I hate it.

The worst part about it is when it interferes with someone else's life.

I don't ever want to hold someone back from doing something

they want because I'm incompetent.

Unfortunately, the fear of looking like an idiot by admitting 
I'm freaking makes the anxiety a thousand times worse

so it's really a lose/lose situation.

There it is.