Felicity

At any given time in my life in the past 5-6 years I am always in the middle of a television series. ALWAYS.  It's usually something stupid, extremely dramatic & done on a small budget. I have watched some of the most embarrassing television shows ever aired in their entirety. The worst side effect is that once I start, I have to finish it until the series is over. Ryan & I started "Cheers" several months ago and I can't explain how much it kills me that we're 200+ episodes in and haven't watched in awhile. My brain won't allow me to give up on the characters, no matter how ridiculous they are. Ryan says I'm the reason why some shows are still on air or on Netflix. I'm the sole human still willing to give the show a chance; waiting to see what becomes of the young lovers and how many people are killed off. I get way too emotionally attached to TV characters and I'm fully aware.

I do this so that I always have something to fill my time without Ryan if needed or something to fill the emptiness on a bad day or to just be that background noise while I do stuff around the house.

Last week I started watching "Felicity" - that oh so dramatic hit show from the 90s. First of all, this was the first time I actually contemplated stopping a show after 2 or 3 episodes. It's so dramatic to me that it's almost painful. I feel like it's incredibly unrealistic and I don't connect with characters at all. Maybe it's because I didn't have a college experience and live in a dorm and have multiple boyfriends at that age. Anyway, in an episode I watched last night I heard the following and it struck such a chord with me and I just had to share. 

Old man: "The way I see it… you two best friends were never best friends to begin with."

Felicity: "Actually, sir, I really think we were."

Old man: "Hm If I’m understandin’ right and I think I’m understandin’ right, you two met when you were both seriously lonely and maybe a little desperate, when you both needed a best friend. You shared a few things together, started to refer to each other as “best” , but that was premature, wasn’t it? ‘cause what you had never really earned that title. I had a best friend for 63 years, played in the Minors together, went to war together, 63 years. And here’s the fact: you can’t get a best friend. Best friends become. They don’t happen in a meeting or a year or 2. It’s a package deal—friendship. Only as valuable as what you put in, come through. Judging something like that after one year, even if you got all the facts, that’s like looking for the final score before you’ve seen the second inning. I don’t think you two were best friends to begin with. Now one of 2 things is gonna happen. You’re either gonna come through this on your way to becoming the kind of friends you thought you were or you become memories, memories that will fade into nothin’."

I couldn't have said it better myself. I have learned that this year in so many ways. There are a select few in my life that truly are best friends and I've learned to cherish them more now than ever. I will never be able to show them just how much their honesty & loyalty means to me. All I know is that it's so comforting to know that through the years, they haven't left and I know they never will.